I am ENOUGH
All this time I’ve been thinking that this journey was about getting in the best shape of my life but this process has revealed so much more!
V A L U E & S E L F – W O R T H
Back on top of that mountain in Jasper I knew if a change was going to be possible a lot of things were going to have to change, including my mindset. I struggled with a lot of self-limiting beliefs, the biggest one being am I good enough?
- Am I good enough to be a mother?
- Am I good enough to be a wife?
- Am I good enough to make a difference?
- Am I good enough to get that job?
- Am I good enough to play on that team?
- Am I good enough to get a mortgage?
- Am I good enough to go to the gym?
- Am I good enough to eat right?
- Am I good enough to be her friend?
- Am I good enough to open that business?
- Am I good enough to attend that party?
- Am I good enough to change?
- Am I good enough to be loved?
- Am I good enough to love?
I am typically a positive person, always looking for the best in people and situations. That load of am I good enough was a heavy one to carry.
How does am I good enough serve me? It hasn’t served me well. It’s one of the main reasons I am an emotional eater. I “protect” myself with the food which packs on the pounds. I’ve made myself small by putting others on pedestals. I’ve made dumb decisions based on fear. I have sabotaged relationships and drank too much – all in the name of wondering am I good enough?
It was time to get down to business! I hired Life Coach, Aly Pain, I signed up for The Great Life Redesign and was working on the Brene Brown, Gifts of Imperfection e-course. I popped my camper one weekend and had a backyard retreat to read Loving What Is by Byron Katie. I was resourcing all the free online material I could find about self worth & value to make this necessary transformation happen.
Aly & I have tackled some of my past demons (which I will share in future posts) and in the process I’ve grown! I’ve learned my value, surrounded myself with those who see my worth and learned to wholeheartedly love myself. I know, to some, this will sound selfish but I can assure you that because of these lessons I can say that I AM ENOUGH! I can love others more fully! I’m a better wife, mother, human! My mind has shifted from Am I Enough to I AM Enough!
Finding my worth hasn’t been an easy road. I’ve had to learn to appreciate the difficult times and celebrate the fact that I made it to the other side! I’ve cried. I’ve hurt. I’ve suffered. I’ve retreated. I’ve eaten cheeseburgers! (not since December though!) I’ve been sad and down. As each day passed I could see the light at the end of the tunnel shining a little brighter. That light was my self-worth glow!
I began to see growth and forgiveness, courage and strength, letting go and embracing. I no longer make myself small and face the world as an equal. It was only once I started letting go of am I good enough and started embracing I AM enough did my transformation start to take place and magical things began to happen.
People and opportunities started popping up to help make this transformation possible. My body began to let go of the weight. I felt like I belonged in the gym and my muscles started to grow. I found the strength to break up with QPC! This was the beginning of self-worth!
I’m can’t say that I feel 100% self-worth or value all of the time. I’m still a work in progress! I can say that my decisions get authentic answers that don’t come from a place of fear. I feel empowered to be able to listen to my intuition and trust my gut.
What I can say, with 100% certainty, is that these positive changes toward living my Great Life can only be sustainable in the presence of self-worth and the knowledge that I am enough.
We are all ENOUGH – just the way we are, no matter where we are on our journey. xo