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Reshaping My Thoughts to Reshape My Body

If you’ve been following my journey you know that I’ve been struggling with the MRI results and that I was off track for a little bit. I have forgiven myself for this set back and accepted it for what it was. {yay – improvement!}

I’ve spent the last couple weeks healing my soul and reshaping my thoughts. In the past weeks, I was guilty of attaching myself to everything my body isn’t able to do instead of focusing on all that it still CAN do! An essential mind shift has taken place.

The scale not moving for almost 8 weeks was taking it’s toll.

In an unhealthy way, I was attached to the scale. I let it define my success on this journey. While a portion of this journey is about losing weight it is, more importantly, about getting in the best shape of my life!  To me, that means living in vibrant wellness.  Using food to fuel my body instead of feeding it, getting stronger, being able to go further, building body confidence, showing some self love and knowing my worth, just as I am right now.

The scale doesn’t tell me anything about how I am living in vibrant wellness yet I allowed it to set the tone for every single day of the journey until now.  I’ve been without the scale for a couple weeks now and I must say that I had a bit of withdrawal. Yet, I feel liberated in knowing that I no longer put all my worth on that needle that didn’t move or didn’t move as much as I wanted it to.

My Strength & Conditioning coach, Karl from Ripple Effect suggested a Scale Smash to help me break loose. That sounded fun! The scale, a sledge hammer and all my scale resentment! My Scale Smash freed me in a way I didn’t know possible.

Now, I have no scale.

How do I measure my success?

SIZE! My pants fit better or don’t fit at all! I bought a dress in a regular size store! My capris from last summer are all too big! I’ve unpacked a few things from the “I’ll fit into these again one day” box from the basement.

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HEART! My heart is full of the courage to keep going. The courage to be vulnerable and ask for help when I need it. It’s filled with a new love for my body just the way it is right now, not 10lbs from now.  Filled with an acceptance for what I am still able to accomplish even with an injury.

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STRENGTH! When I started at the gym in January I was sled pulling less than 100lbs.  This week I pulled 250lbs! I can do over a hundred push ups! I’ve done a hundred squats in one day! I can walk for longer than 15 minutes without the shooting pain! I’ve even done one chin up – something I thought I’d never do in this lifetime! The feelings from strength outweigh ANY number that could ever appear on the scale.

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Today, I’m inching back on track, recommitted to the journey, reshaping my body, and practicing gratitude for the hard lessons over the last couple months. I’m focused on what I’m still able to accomplish, embracing the baby steps that will lead me down the path to success. I’m living, day by day, in vibrant wellness and appreciating every minute of it!

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6 Comments on "Reshaping My Thoughts to Reshape My Body"

  1. Lori says:

    I love your heart, strength, and comfortableness with your body. You continue to inspire me on this journey! <3

  2. So proud of you and all that you are doing! You are an inspiration my friend!!

  3. Jenn says:

    LOVE! Love love love love love!! You are so amazing Melsha!

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